Dream Drawings from the City of Gears. In a vertigo daze the city starts to fade. The towering tombstone skyscrapers and massive crowds spiral away and we begin to feel the weightlessness of existence. As if in space there is no means to distinguish direction and the difference between floating and falling is nil. The sensation is simultaneously terrifying and liberating as we soar through life in an empty space. At once we are freed from the factory routines, having escaped the traps of conformity and hypnotic repetitions yet the sense of alienation adds tension to the dream. It becomes horrifically apparent that to rise above the madness of the metropolis, to become ones true self, can only lead to isolation floating and falling through nowhere.
The “Floating & Falling” people were a recurring theme throughout this series of artworks. In congruence to the endless crowd scenes made up of thousands of faceless people I used the singular figure to exemplify several concepts including alienation. In both the crowded scenes and the solitary figure images an extreme sense of despair and loneliness is being expressed. In the larger scene the viewer becomes aware of his or her own insignificance as attention is drawn to the loss of identity and the absurdity of society as a whole. The individual characters depicted as falling or floating above the city compliment the larger scenes by giving the audience an immediate connection with the figure. The sense of surreal isolation reminds of our personal struggles intensifying our connection to the hordes of anonymous characters in the detailed crowd scenes.
There is something very personal about these dream drawings.The falling and floating characters truly represent the psychological state I was experiencing at the time. It is difficult to put into words but while I was creating them and even now as I look back I get a weird feeling in my stomach. Like in the descriptive short story on this page the image gives me a simultaneous sense of sadness and wonderment. There were probably about 50 variations of the falling & floating people made in the first “HEY APATHY” series. These works ranged from 5 inches by 5 inches up to 6 feet x 8 feet. It is also interesting to note that a poster sized drawing, about 30 inches x 40 inches, of a similar image was the very first ink drawing that I ever sold.